Struggling hard to come to terms with this feeling
But never relief in sight.
I even dreamt about you, oh so many times.
What you would be like, what would you say
Only if your life hadn’t ended that way.
I have a picture or two but not really enough
I think I have studied them a lot, etched you in my mind
What my tears and heart cannot find.
I see you liked cats, wow, that is so me
I favor you too, a lot, it would seem.
I know you smoked Marlboro cigarettes
That you liked to play practical jokes,
I know your eyes were blue, as mine are,
You not being here has left a terrible scar.
I so would had loved to show you my life,
Tell you stories of things and tell you goodnight.
It just wasn’t our time, I guess
Happy endings for us were not meant to be.
I still think of you as often as I breath.
Gone from this old world, but not truly from me
See, you were my father and always will be.