poem by MwsR

MwsR Writings

After All This Time

I felt myself staring
Taking glances, as the chance came
What could be so bad?
Even if she forgot your name.
Without hesitation I approached
Caught myself starring at your face time had rewrote.
I knew this person, a long time ago.
Is this still her, the who, that caused me such whoa?
As unrehearsed words fell out of my mouth
I struggled only, in the silent bouts.
What was left to say after all this time?
Maybe nothing, maybe something
I didn’t think about it any further.
What came out, jumped out.
What was silent remained quite.
How could such a time make up for all
What was and is left when you heart has fallen?
Nothing now, not anything really
Separation made me change
It made me different
This time had it been ten years ago
Would of swallowed me whole.
It would have my tears, my fears, and my security at its beckoning.
But somehow now, somehow in that moment, I did not waiver.
I am stronger, I have endured longer
Than I thought possible.
Thankful I saw how I could deal
Thankful I still survive
This reality is mine, it is real.
If you find yourself where I’ve been
Take a deep breath and breath again
Go through it
You don’t have to prove it
Whatever it may be.
Just be you and let yourself be free.