After the war, things began to be hectic. People were in dire straights and felt a lot of anxiety and a need to survive , by whatever means possible. Lots of them would rob, steal, or cheat to keep their families in food and clothes and in here.
The war had taken its toll on our poor town. Some people packed up their belongings and left things behind, seeking a better place. In our town the business district suffered huge economical downfalls. Lots boarded their windows up and locked their doors. There was great concern over whether any business would survive.
This day, the one where the rainbow shone bright up a head was a day like none other. The alien mother ship sent this rainbow to us. It was their sign of a peaceful end to our suffering. At last no one had to fear, nor steal. No one had to worry about anything ever again. The mother ship assured us all that everything would be okay, once again.
We all took our prized possessions and loaded into the ship, one by one. We wanted to believe, so we did.
Just in case you have not noticed
Just in case you paid no mind
I was wondering if it is too much of a waste of time.
I woke this morning, with our “lack” of a relationship, in my thoughts.
They encircled my dreams and turned me into a sad person.
The thought of you and I, brings nothing but doubt and suspicion
I think it to be a real act of fruition
Seems you are trying to ruin my day or something else
In all you lack to do or say.
I feel that you are in a race with your ownself
Seeing and compromising things in order to have full reigns
If this is a friendship, then I do not want it any more
I wish you had stayed on your side of life’s door
I get my hopes up and then they are crushed
You play the part of the underdog so well.
Have others thinking you are just swell.
I am the one who sees the other side of your self induced hell.
I see how you want to fit in, how you will not give an inch,though
To make the effort for a friendship, you say you want so.
I am the one who on numerous occasions asked and planned for a nice time out
With you, but you never have ever came through.
I now keep this doubt in the back of my head,
Often wondering if you are a person I should dread.
Just, if in case you have an incline of care
I really tried this whole time to be fair.
Just, if you turn to look behind yourself
You might find someone like me that tried to see you for you
Someone who really did not focus on your bad efforts and empty promises
Just, if you could have separated your good and bad and shown more of the good
People would willingly be there,for you, if they could.
Even after all the pain
After all the rejection
I would let you back in.
I would do it guarded and on high alert
But I would definitely try
Even after all the lies that you have told about me
After all those days I wished to be free
I would still sit with you
I would do it without apprehension but willingness.
But I would be reserved from your taking your advice.
Even after the loss of my happy teenage years
After all the hiding I had to do and the shame
I would let you know the “now” me
I would pray each day, so I could have courage to stand strong
But I will never willingly let you hurt me again.
Even after the rumors, the harm, the backstabbing
After everyone has formed their own opinions of me
I would let you genuinely love me
I would prefer that you are humble
But I won’t beg you for none of this, ever.
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