Today is an ordinary day
But things could vastly go astray
But if I could, oh, if I may
I would like some more coffee my way.
I know it is getting late,
But don’t you worry; I won’t hesitate,
To get the sleep I know I should take
When nighttime dreams emulate our wake.
Ah, sounds great!
MwsR <3
Oh why, must my soul torture me
Where will it end?
I have paid so many debts for things done wrong.
So many trials and still I carry on.
I wonder will you still be there?
When things I keep buried, come up for air.
To think I am less of a righteous human
Sets my soul to burn
Constantly reminding me of the wrong things I have done.
I have asked for a lot of pardons, most of my life.
I never questioned the turn of forgiveness.
I wanted to know that I am worth forgiving
That I can sit where others do
And to know there still is some good
In me
Often times I feel un-worthy of love
Many times I struggle with it, I know, absurd.
When time comes for my life to be over
I want to walk those streets of gold
I just want my feet on the holy land
I want to see glory and feel that power.
Oh, am I too far gone?
Unforgiveable?
Please let my soul find peace!
Wrestling daily with my self
Has worn a hole in my heart.
Restless and still longing
Ultimate grief is mine.
I can not make anyone understand
It is not them, but me that I cannot stand next to
It is me that I cannot love
It is most definitely I, that I cannot trust.
If only…
Can a person find everlasting peace?
The cure for all that ails their heart.
I hope so, with barely enough hope to last
I wish for that cure, those cures
The ones that will last.
MwsR >3
Shadow(s), by MwsR
In the dark lurks a shadow
It is not cordial to say the least.
It will rob you of your peace and mind
And slowly on them it will feast.
Light does not come close to touching it
It will sneak and hide away,
It always returns,
Especially at the end of the day.
No circumstance will help you
No help you will find
When in the shadows it waits
One day or another time.
You need to come to terms with it
Deal with it in your own way
Don’t try to ignore it
It will never go away.
WE all have those shadows
In real life that manifest
If left undealt with they will grow
Slowly your hope they will ingest.
It hurts, but I can’t bleed
My own feelings, that I hold down deep.
Love I hold, keeps me a prisoner
Those with boldness, destructors
Hurts like a boil, mine
Festers up each time
No escape, no reprieve
Why am I the only one who can see?
Perhaps my curse, their will is my stone
Even here in my own home.
MwsR
The earth is my go to place
I feel at ease in that dirty space
I can touch it and know it is real
Rubbing my fingers through it as I feel.
Something about the beams from the sun
Makes me feel so purposeful and needed,some
I can make whatever I wish,
Whatever I plant I can eat on my dish
It is rewarding and so special to me
The things that my hands make to be
Earth, sun, and a heart that can create
This earth can surely be great.
MwsR >3
You had the power
I was weak
You took my trust
I gave it to you
No love that was true
That is what I saw, when I saw you.
You stole my innocence
I played the game
You tookmy respect
I took the blame
You hurt me deeper
I felt the pain
You were not a real dad
I only had your name
Lies you told
Lies that I felt
You never will get that chance again
I will never let you.
MwsR ❤️
Grow slower
Learn more
Reap benefits
Sow gladness
Teach love
Grab memories
Leap gracefully
Stand firm
Believe miracles
Forgive always
Ask thoughtfully
Preserve yourself
Linger if needed
Leave when asked
Finish everything
Cling without smothering
Test your skills
Work with pride
Hug others often
Lift another up
Be the change needed
Save your own self
Remember to be strong
Pray for our world
Cherish everything you have
Push towards your goals
Accomplish what needs accomplishing
In the end what matters?
You, me, them, and us.
MwsR