When life gets you down
And turns that smile into a frowns
When taking in criticisms you feel you are about to drown
I hope you know it hurts me too.
When all you want to do is flee
Things that hurt you bounce back to me
It is not as helpless as it seems
When you hurt, I do too.
Whenever silence takes a back seat
The world can be cruel and on your back it will try to beat
Don’t fall down, turn around with your feet
I will be there, whatever hurts you.
Hurts come in all strange ways
Falling from your heart strangling what we want to say
It is okay
Just know you are never alone.
You by MwsR
You give your deepest heart affection
Yet still you’ll face deep rejection
Your mind thinks you’re crazy and blind
Your spirit wraps your will up in a bind.
You take from a person whenever you will
But forget about the fact that you care still.
Noone sees the times you’re alone
The times when you feel like your heart seems to roam.
People will take and take without guilt or shame
Why is it they play like they’re playing a game?
You’re tired of users, players, and jokes
Yes, these are some of your friends you include in those folks.
Sadly, it is true
Not everyone truly cares about you.
Die, I think I shall try to avoid doing
I do not want to die, nor should I
Diabetes does not have to kill me
I can fight this thing will my all
I will challenge anything I see fit to challenge
Be it the doctors of the Diabetic Law.
I want to run with the vigor anyone else does
I will not give up without a fight
I can and will beat this terrible thing
Maybe not physically, but mentally.
I do not have to die because I refused to fight
Live, I think so, the most I can
With this disease that will be a stumbling block
But not a road block.
I hate this disease but love living
Not to die but to beat this, in all ways possible.
I am thankful that I escaped
That I left and had the courage that it would take
I am thankful that my heart started to smile
Despite all at that time in my life was senile
I am thankful that I did not fall apart
While trying to separate my heart.
I am thankful that life can be grand
Despite all the hurt that can follow a man.
I am so thankful my love never dried up
That I could forgive and such.
I am most thankful that my life started again
Regardless of all that I went through back then.
I am thankful like a deer that escapes the hunter’s bow
Like a cold frost that can destroy things and then knows when to let go.
I am much thankful for new beginnings
And for being able to hear the songs that birds are singing.
From start to finish, onward I must go
Always striving to see thanksgiving in all I live to know.
It’s Gonna Kill Me(thoughts about Diabetes)
It’s going to kill me!
Was what I had in my head immediately.
I can’t afford the medicine
I don’t follow a strict regimen.
Now what will I have to give up in my life?
Will I still be a good wife?
What will people say?
Will they stay with me or walk away?
I can not donate my pancreas or blood
Sort of like a flower stem wishing for a bud.
I have a bad part inside of me,
Never thought this was how my life would be.
Maybe I wasn’t nice enough
Or too tough.
Maybe I deserve my lot
Or all that with Diabetes I’ve got.
These thoughts have entered my mind,
Especially the one that reminds me that with Diabetes you can go blind.
It’s a scary disease.
It makes you want to be able to freeze,
Freeze that good blood sugar,so you want have one that is bad
But truth is this disease really makes me mad.
Makes me mad that I cannot choose what I want to eat or drink.
Mad, because it makes me always have to think.
Sometimes I just want to be at ease with food choices
Sometimes I want to listen to those eat sugar voices.
Mostly though I want to live happily,
Mainly because of my family.
But ultimately I want to give hope and keep hope.
I don’t want to know what it’s like to be at the end of the “survival rope”.
If in words I can share
I will also be able to show that I care.
What I Know(Diabetic’s thoughts)
It just takes one bite
And my sugar stays high all night.
One can of a regular coke
And feeling tired afterwards is no joke.
Wanting to overeat
But knowing inside it will make my bloodsugars peak.
At birthday parties passing up on the cake,
Because you hate that “sugar high” headache.
Feeling tired all day long
The food you ate and what kind was all wrong.
Wanting to get in shape
Exercising only with enough calorie intake.
Going out on the town to a favorite food place
Catching the frown you’re given from your loved one’s face.
Being told “You know that is wrong to do”,
But asking them ,”And just who the heck are you?”
It’s never not thought about
Never easy without a doubt.
Diabetes is a complication and disease
But doesn’t have to bring you to your knees.
Take control, take back your life.
Make it count regardless of any strife.
Imagine if you will
A place where time actually stood still.
A time where all that mattered was gone.
Not saying I had not a home
But a moment to reflect
Time for my soul to recollect
All that had perspired accumulated
Gathered in a sort of moments re-united.
I search no more,
Not in the frozen time warp
I only saw things in perspective
Saw the things around me that I collected
Even people and places and thoughts in no certain order
I would actually say, that mimicked a mental sort of disorder.
But time was on my side
I had no more secrets to hide
I actually felt one with my life
Saw my journey without feeling life’s knife
I paused, as if time was not still
Only to make sure I was not “ill”
And in another instance time resumed
I felt all disoriented and full of gloom
I liked imagining time at a standstill
Just to allow me to reflect as if looking through a windowsill.
If only, I thought, it could be
Then life would had been more special to me
Than cumbersome and such
But if I honest, that would be asking too much.