When you walk in the light, you have a shadow. Although the shadow doesn’t define you, you still have it. Just like a shadow, we each have something that follows us. It does not have to define us. We can choose to stay in the “light” and learn from our shadows. Learn. Live. Love. MwsR Writings
I think there is a place, A wondrous place where you can set your mind at ease. A wondrous place where you can set your mind at ease. Another dimension of the now we know It is what we have in our minds. See the ability to transport to another place with other feelings Is simply, there. There among the clutter, the business of life.
It is purely up to you where you choose to go. Could be for a minute, for an hour, or longer. Depends upon what you want to invest in the travel. Depends upon what you want to invest in the travel. You can take with your knowledge of things past, or possibly things you have not experienced yet.
There are many seasons there, it just depends on the factors that there are. It could be raining or cold, possibly windy and sunny all on the same day. That is how it is with our heads. This is how it is with our heads. There is so much to them, even so much we keep in our subconscious.
I think there is for sure a place. A wondrous place where you can set your mind at ease. A wondrous place where you can set your mind at ease. Another part of us we sometimes fail to see. It is where we have the ability in our minds to feel something different than in our lives. There, among the clutter, the hectic business of life, you can control it.
We all face different things in our lives. Seldom do we stop and realize what others go through. I have known friends that hurt each day, carry guilt, and are hurt. I know people who despite circumstances that were given to them, carry on every day.
It is never the journey ahead that hurts us… It is, however, our lack to properly prepare as we start that journey. MwsR
Don’t forget others go through it, deal with it, and push past it… you can too.
Yes, it will hurt sometimes. Yes, it will change you some. Yes, it will most definitely impact those who are in it with you, in one way, shape, or form. This can most certainly be directly or indirectly.
But the good news is… You can move through whatever journey is ahead… You can.
Aware by MwsR (POEM IS ALL IT IS, BASED ON LIFE REALLY)
I’m so tired of trying So much like a gun that’s through firing. I have the capabilities to do more, It just isn’t worth all the allure. Maybe it was a trial run or a possible misfire Maybe my emotions are a liar. Need me, only in case of emergency It can’t be me anymore, you see! I’ve done all I desire to do Remember it wasn’t me but you. There is a shift in power now I’m taking over, someway, somehow. Better if you look for another opportunity Because I’m putting you away for my sanity. I won’t get played anymore See we have already been here, in this predicament before. It’s nothing that it is the way it is Just one to just dismiss. There I said it, now you know Don’t come to me unless you can show What it means to say you care. It’s more than words, you should be made aware.
A sense of sadness is in my soul. I do not know where to begin. I did not see myself this sad over the possibility of losing someone who caused me so much emotional damage. I had briefly entertained the thought, long ago, of this person meeting his maker. I had thought that should he have the chance he might come to me one day and ask for my forgiveness. I guess I was wrong to think that would happen. Sometimes, in life, things will stay the same, or they won’t change. As I age I see so much of what is wrong in this life. I see hurt feelings that never mend. I hear stories of people at their end, taking all their animosity or hate with them to their graves. I also see those who longed for better but never took the step to get there. Sadly I know of too much heartache and tears shed in the name of “ pride”.
This man who was supposed to protect me, love me, and help me, ruined my teenage years and my self-worth. He imposed his selfish ways upon me. He created a girl destined to fail at being confident and self assured. He led my head down a path I never thought it would go. Trailing behind it was my heart. It would spin out of control and dangle around my neck like a noose. I would almost have to die to be made whole again. Well, whole enough to see hope and love and joy.
So much of who I am came from this man. Not my courage, not my strength, actually nothing positive, that was all my own doing. From him every fear, every doubt, every self disturbing thought came. It came so hard that I thought it would finish me off. So why did I even allow myself the trouble of a one day reappearance that would give me closure and he would ask to be forgiven for it all? I don’t know. Perhaps hearing that he is in hospice was a nudge towards those thoughts. Perhaps I still believe in forgiveness and reconciliation of some things. Of course, I do!
Never have a read-up on how to deal with such an issue. I believe it is safe to say there are no outlines of how to correctly respond to such news. Hospice means that he is dying. It means he should make amends and make his last will. It means those around him should help him get his affairs in order. Yet, I feel no one can help his soul but God. No one can help him be forgiven. It is his own decision to do so. Maybe he is too sick to be coherent. Or maybe he can’t speak. There are a thousand scenarios of what his case might be. I guess I may never know.
Now I’m faced with letting it go, again. I need to let God handle it because frankly, I have so many emotions about it all. I would surely mess up things if I were on my own. I covet prayers for peace and understandings concerning this. If you would pray for his soul that would be much appreciated. I feel that God needs me to ask this. I feel that this is so much more than mine and his history. This is or was my father by adoption. He was put in my life. I may not know the reason why but I know he was.
My heart is torn, it is so sad. I wish for better days. I long for peace and if possible confirmation of his life had it been changed. Thank you all for reading.