TOXIC

Just in case you have not noticed

Just in case you paid no mind

I was wondering if it is too much of a waste of time.

I woke this morning, with our “lack” of a relationship, in my thoughts.

They encircled my dreams and turned me into a sad person.

The thought of you and I, brings nothing but doubt and suspicion

I think it to be a real act of fruition

Seems you are trying to ruin my day or something else

In all you lack to do or say.

I feel that you are in a race with your ownself

Seeing and compromising things in order to have full reigns

If this is a friendship, then I do not want it any more

I wish you had stayed on your side of life’s door

I get my hopes up and then they are crushed

You play the part of the underdog so well.

Have others thinking you are just swell.

I am the one who sees the other side of your self induced hell.

I see how you want to fit in, how you will not give an inch,though

To make the effort for a friendship, you say you want so.

I am the one who on numerous occasions asked and planned for a nice time out

With you, but you never have ever came through.

I now keep this doubt in the back of my head,

Often wondering if you are a person I should dread.

Just, if in case you have an incline of care

I really tried this whole time to be fair.

Just, if you turn to look behind yourself

You might find someone like me that tried to see you for you

Someone who really did not focus on your bad efforts and empty promises

Just, if you could  have separated your good and bad and shown more of the good

People would willingly be there,for you, if they could.