Tag: bother

I did not mean to aggravate you

Honestly, I just wanted to know what you knew

Looking for any answers to the questions in my mind

Am I not living here? Are you just blind?

My prerogative it was to know the answers surrounding my adoption

But you had selfish intentions

You wanted to keep me broken,

So somehow you could be the one standing there catching my tears

You wanted me to know only selective things

Not the real story that most adoptive parents bring

You thought my questions were so bothersome

Maybe they were, to you

But to me they encircled my life and something true

I needed to be bothersome because you paid me no mind

Nothing was shared that would ease this burden of mine

I went years without knowing the truth

Years that hurt me so,

Left me to grow up different, you know

When I think back

You were the one holding the strings

The one who thought it was bothersome to answer me

Funny how now that I am older,

Those answers are still left unanswered

And I am still somewhat a mess

My bothering you did not help me a bit

I guess my questions were too much

Bothersome again, I bet.