On this night I was awakened by a surreal dream.
He was in it , of course, that was how it seemed.
He had chased me around into different parts of this dream
I could not distinguish between them, they each ran right into the next scene.
If I had to have a fear it has always been him.
He who took my trust and vanished it away.
My heartbeat was strong, and my eyes were wet with tears
I knew in my reality it was just a dream but in my heart , it felt so real.
Maybe because parts of it mocked my real life
Possibly things were still sitting on my mind.
I couldn’t shake this feeling I had
Like I was in fear, running from something, I knew was still there.
He gave me feelings I had, had in my past,
Feelings I am certain now are not gone, but continue to last.
Ones where I am out of control of my life
No where to go, no way to escape.
This dream was a mimic of dreams, I have already had
So thankful I can ultimately wake up from them.
For if the things I dreamed could come true and in that way
I would not want to live in them or wish to stay.
My subconscious is a tricky one I must confess
See, I think things are gone, but then I get reminded they are not.
Powerful enough to give me doubt but not strong enough to knock me out.