Even after all the pain
After all the rejection
I would let you back in.
I would do it guarded and on high alert
But I would definitely try
Even after all the lies that you have told about me
After all those days I wished to be free
I would still sit with you
I would do it without apprehension but willingness.
But I would be reserved from your taking your advice.
Even after the loss of my happy teenage years
After all the hiding I had to do and the shame
I would let you know the “now” me
I would pray each day, so I could have courage to stand strong
But I will never willingly let you hurt me again.
Even after the rumors, the harm, the backstabbing
After everyone has formed their own opinions of me
I would let you genuinely love me
I would prefer that you are humble
But I won’t beg you for none of this, ever.