As if my hurting was not enough
You create this journey that’s tough,
Wanting desperately to be “normal”, feel normal.
This is my normal.
I hear what you say, my heart wants to stay
My head wants to walk away.
Seems things are so scattered now
What can I possibly do anyhow.
Like a switch that’s been used too long
I feel the weakness from it all, I’m not that strong.
Must I explain everything
Must I endure so much pain
“ you’ll be alright dear”, is all I hear, it’s insane.
Some people bounce through life
I fell into mine.
I didn’t ask for the harmful effects
From someone else’s neglect.
I pray for help
For strength, for sanity, for clarity
No more pain, loss of caring, and no more disparity.
If I could just heal, I’d be alright
As if it’s too much for me to ask
Such a burden, such a task.
If it’s God’s plan
I’ll do all I can.