It has been 21 years since we shared a conversation
And in that time we have not sat at the same table
Or ate our food together
We have visited the same stores, perhaps the same events
Just like ghosts we pass by each other
We haunt the same places
We haunt the same minds.
Our togetherness was suddenly evacuated
Desperately we both had to leave our former lot
You left years ago when you refused to listen
And I left when I no longer could stay.
What we once shared, we no longer do
I can’t help it though, I still think of you.
I wonder why it went the way it did
Why you bailed on me and left me to struggle.
Was I too much trouble?
I wonder if there are days you have
Where you wonder and think of , what we could have had
Where troubles melt like lemon drops
Wait, that was in a movie song
No realism in that
I have come to realize that.
But my mind is still puzzled and I guess always will be.
We live in the same darn city!
We are but minutes from each other
But a lifetime of sins, separates us.
If I could would I wish it away?’
I am not certain I would.
Without you I am strong,
On my own I have been for so long.
I had to adapt
Had to put childish dreams away.
Had to see things for what they really are , you might say.
I once was lost but now I see
There never really was unconditional love for me
It is just something to acknowledge so I can keep on my way
I do however let my mind remember
I remember the not so bad times we had together
I stay focused on reality, but keep a hand on my heart
It needs some support now, since we had our depart.
Same city, same phone numbers
Wow, it is as plain as the nose on a person’s face.
Love can still exist where a heart breaks.
I know, mine does.