Imagine you are just shy of turning 13
You are thinking of things you want to get for your birthday that’s coming up
A certain someone comes to you one hot summer day
They express that they like the way that you look
Explaining that you are beautiful and fill your sun suit just right.
You feel weird inside,
Something in those words make you queasy
You feel a sense of running away.
Inside your head you are crying in fear
You know what he meant when he said what he said.
Imagine having to hide from your parent
Wishing they would go and never come back
The way that they talked to you, every move that they took
Made you so sick, you wanted to puke.
The torment you feel for being a female
For having grown up from an adolescent child
The unfairness of the whole thing
The wanting to tell someone but fearing the outcome
Wanting to disfigure yourself so you would look ugly
Because then he would be interested.
Imagine having to tell a person goodnight in the dark
Not having any way of escaping the grabs, the touches
Having to show respect to someone who should have none.
Being alone in a pitch black room,
Hoping he would fall asleep soon.
Screaming in your head while you approach him in his bedroom.
It was too horrible to explain
Too demeaning and hurtful in every way.
My abstinence helped me
Kept that ultimate stain away
But the efforts that he made towards me,
Have left me permanently “blind”.
Imagine being the only one who believed you,
Who helped you and did not give up on you.
That was me, myself and I.
I kept myself whole physically,
Although matters of my heart were damaged.
It is a terrible place to be
A place with so much vulnerability.
At least not with me
That type of sin will not touch my heart again.
Imagine a world where things are as they should be
Where a person loves another in the right ways
Where no one gets hurt, no deed goes unpunished
Everyone can have total control of their life.
That is a world I want to live in,
A world where a kid can be a kid
Where everyone is loved genuinely.
Thank you for reading 🙂