Without you,
I had to learn to be a mom
Sometimes that meant wallowing in my own self pity
I had to love those who were unlovable
Had to heal things I really knew nothing about
Taking pride in the few accomplishments I had, for myself
Learned how to do balancing acts
Forgiveness and wanting you back
Tried to reach out a few times
That backfired on me, so I stopped
I had to continue dreaming when hope was scarce
It was because your love was too.
Without You
I stopped breathing naturally, and started inhaling deeply
My heart became prisoner to the things my mind knew
My spirit, well it took a nose dive or two
Nights were the hardest, and still are
My mind thinks in coordination with my heart,
The brokenness has never left
Your name still brings me pain
I think sometimes I would be better off insane
Without You
I started again
I picked up the pieces and ran
I held them together on a whisper and a prayer
The moments I was alone, and no one was there
Was the hardest and still can be
If I forget the me, in who I wished, or once believed
I want to be happy, be truly happy
Be comfortable in all my efforts and changes
Without You
I changed myself into the person I had to become
The one whose heart never ever won
Nor smiled for so long
The one with out you .
What a sad but wonderful poem!
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