STAY by MwsR
Days run into one another
Memories bear down on your mind
Perhaps you’ve often wished that your heart wasn’t blind.
Separation comes quickly
Almost without warning
Yet nothing is like seeing the sunrise in the morning.
Past grievances all have lent hands to your destruction
They held so tightly, as if to strangle
At least you felt your pulse as your heart started to dangle.
Whispers follow all the innuendos
Friends become as distant strangers
Family feels more like taking a path full of dangers.
Befuddled and left to sort through things
Comfort you cannot really find
No, your bruised and battered, emotionally blind.
Where to look for that trust that was so sacred
The promises people give when you mattered
All those blank looks that leave you shattered.
Peace is something you start to beg for
Even alone you know you deserve more
You know they sit and wait to explore
Taking your dignity, your feelings
Your desires and your smile
You will learn to trust for a bit, but it will take a while.
That leaves you vulnerable and exposed
Ready to cry when someone snubs you
Hurts you, as they often do.
Why have memories if they are painful?
What good is it to smile, when that can suddenly change?
So many disappointments, so many deranged.
Short comings should not be like rain run offs
They should not show up where you least expect them
Making it hard for you, to stay calm or to breathe, like phlegm.
You should be able to leave things in the past
Move forward, with every task, even loving
There is something odd though, when you actually start moving.
You feel weird inside, fearful that with every stride
Someone is going to take your emotions on a rollercoaster
One without seat belts, one without any brakes, made out of plaster.
Be prepared is your new motto
No one every stays forever
No-one wants to, hardly ever
The days run into one another
Your biggest issue is staying okay
Hoping if you choose to love again, that they stay.