STAY by MwsR

Days run into one another

Memories bear down on your mind

Perhaps you’ve often wished that your heart wasn’t blind.

Separation comes quickly

Almost without warning

Yet nothing is like seeing the sunrise in the morning.

Past grievances all have lent hands to your destruction

They held so tightly, as if to strangle

At least you felt your pulse as your heart started to dangle.

Whispers follow all the innuendos

Friends become as distant strangers

Family feels more like taking a path full of dangers.

Befuddled and left to sort through things

Comfort you cannot really find

No, your bruised and battered, emotionally blind.

Where to look for that trust that was so sacred

The promises people give when you mattered

All those blank looks that leave you shattered.

Peace is something you start to beg for

Even alone you know you deserve more

You know they sit and wait to explore

Taking your dignity, your feelings

Your desires and your smile

You will learn to trust for a bit, but it will take a while.

That leaves you vulnerable and exposed

Ready to cry when someone snubs you

Hurts you, as they often do.

Why have memories if they are painful?

What good is it to smile, when that can suddenly change?

So many disappointments, so many deranged.

Short comings should not be like rain run offs

They should not show up where you least expect them

Making it hard for you, to stay calm or to breathe, like phlegm.

You should be able to leave things in the past

Move forward, with every task, even loving

There is something odd though, when you actually start moving.

You feel weird inside, fearful that with every stride

Someone is going to take your emotions on a rollercoaster

One without seat belts, one without any brakes, made out of plaster.

Be prepared is your new motto

No one every stays forever

No-one wants to, hardly ever

The days run into one another

Your biggest issue is staying okay

Hoping if you choose to love again, that they stay.