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Strength by MwsR Writings

The walls I built were never for you, they were for me. The strength it took to keep them erect was much harder than you’d expect. Then one day. many years later, the walls no longer mattered.
It was the strength that I had gained from all of that pain. My world would be forever changed but my heart would live on, go on, and be much more than I’d ever hoped for.
The remnants of the walls remain and sometimes I still sense their presence. I no longer wait with bated breath but with rememberance of what was, what could be.
You’ll never know this because you are not me.
So don’t try to lessen my strength with rumors, you aren’t privy to such a state as mine. I will not run away, or resort to a corner to pine. You will only see what I choose to show you, what I allow. There it is, it is the time and it is now.
Don’t think to hard on this, you will certain be amiss.
Travel on from here, I implore. You don’t belong, not anymore.

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Caleb

I’m not sure why but God chose you

He left my heart with a hole

I still find myself looking for you, wishing.

With each can of catfood I open I see you in my mind

Your eagerness to devour all the contents inside.

Special is a word I would describe our relationship as

Special as in extra wonderful

You were the sweetest, most gentle cat.

Your eyes were like marbles with green hues and shades of gold.

Watching you pass from this life towards the great beyond was,

Difficult and agonizing to say the least.

As I sang to you like you always loved,

I assured you it was okay to pass.

I begged God to ease your suffering and let you eternally rest.

You are and were my little “love”.

The morning greeter, the kindest cat,

Forever may my songs ease your heart, and God hold you close.

Something so great as you, God needed to.

In loving memory and sorrow at the loss of my cat, Caleb…

MwsRwritings, MWSR 2023, September

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Can’t Live Behind Walls by MwsR

Nothing is extra ordinary inside of walls
Little is seen and very little heard
Outside those same walls I can breathe
I can help my soul find reprieve.
I can’t live behind walls because I won’t smell new life
I won’t be able to see the wondrous creation
Feel my surroundings through smell, touch, taste, and sight.
Behind walls, things become stagnant
Everything can grow clutter
Foresight can become lost
Reality can get skewed
Outside the walls
Sounds errupt
Touch becomes intense
Hearing is superb
And darkness contains a beauty of its own.
I can’t just stay behind the walls
I’d merely exist
I’d would of missed my first raindrop
Never would of pulled off my first tomato
I would be miserable indeed
Outside of any wall you never know what awaits
You can go for a jog or simply skate
You may find joy and endless matter
Feel the cold, fall as you slip on ice
Eat lunch at a park
Never inside would I stay happy
Too much is outside for me not to be
Spring will come and winter will leave
I can’t stay behind the walls
And miss a chance or miss an event
I can’t stay behind a brick and mortar wall
Or behind one made from tin
I would never stay in
I need walls only for cover and for things to stay safe
But my heart is outside the walls, out from behind all walls.

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Once Upon A Time, by MwsR

Once upon a time
There was no reason or rhyme
My heart held a song
It was about where I belong
My eyes held the pain
Of my sorrow that attached to my name.
I had a load of questions
Some good, some bad, and it was over decisions
My head was filled with trouble
My mind kept me in that bubble.
I exploded one day
It left me in an obscure way.
Now I live in the,
Someday, somehow
And this girl seemed content,
Though her heartstrings were bent
If you’ve been there you know what I meant.
The End is not here, nope
Peace, Love, and Hope.

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Reason By MwsR

Often doing things I would rather leave undone

Searching multiple sources just to get things done

Finishing the chores of the morning in haste

Making sure each hour has not been a waste

Reaching out to those I feel don’t really care

Just running a brush through my own hair

Mending what I physically can

So I don’t need an extra hand

Dealing with bouts of pain

Trying to smile when things go insane

Reconciling to things that you never thought of

Coming up with new ways to deal with short offs

Everything will revolve

There will always be things to solve

Things to prove

Things that are new.

Reasons…

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A Bunch of Ifs
by MwsR

If you can look behind yourself and see no pain
If you can keep a smile even when things stay the same
If you can breathe without complication
Or fix whatever is your problem
If you can see the joy in mundane things
If you can work without any constraints
If you feel empathy for your neighbor
If you can get paid for all your labor
If days come in and they are easy
Then you won’t feel measly
If you can trust without worry
Despite the things that make other people scurry
If tomorrow is awaited with anticipation
Then you can rest easy without hesitation
If your heart is full of peace and love
You will not fall when the push comes to shove
If liars cannot blemish your character,
Then you are special, that’s an important factor
If this poem makes you stop and pause
Then it has served its cause.

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