As I sit at my desk, the one my lovely husband made for me, my thoughts go back in time and reflect on my life and its many journeys. Sometimes people miss out on their futures by living in the past. This is not what I am doing today, today I am remembering, reflecting if you will. How many times do you find yourself looking at something or hearing something that stirs in your mind, a memory or two? Well, as I sit here, surrounded by my faithful and loving cat, Poppy, and with a view of my birdfeeders that are outside, I am where I was before. I am talking about memories, about things that either directly or indirectly took some sort of residence in my thoughts. I have my cup of coffee sitting here, my cellphone, my books, my computers, and my personal touches with me. Still, something is drawing me into a stream. A stream of reflections and remembrances that fill my heart, fill my moments.
I should be writing more on my webpage, but as it goes, I am thinking of my loved ones, and of the God who loves me unconditionally. I have never in my life deserved the wondrous and powerful all-consuming love of God. He graciously gives it to me. Nothing I can ever do would warrant that type of commitment, dedication, and love. Nothing! He is a pivotal instrument in my own personal life. I am not the most faithful, nor the most religious, or dedicated, but somehow none of that ever changes his ways towards me. He constantly forgives me, when I ask. He constantly works behind the scenes in my life. Is that not wonderful?
My family is always in my thoughts, always. No matter what I do or where I go they are there with me, in my thoughts. I have loved, have lost, and have been shunned by some. I have repeatedly forgiven, loved, helped, and encouraged some. I have corrected, instructed, and explained a lot of times. I have three adult kids and four grandkids all under the age of 7. I believe if I was a good mother, grandmother, they would always be in my thoughts, don’t you?
Today as I sit here, reflecting on things, I realize there are people out in our world without hope. People who would rather not reflect on their loved ones, and sometimes on their lives. Not everyone we meet has a great life. Not everyone we meet has a story they refer to for their enjoyment. Some people find it hard to wake up in the morning. Some find no peace at home. A lot of people are just going through the motions of life. It is a lonely or cruel place for many.
There was a point in my life once upon a time, when I was always sad, always hurting, and always searching. I was not given a golden goose, a family home, or riches. I had to make and scrape for everything I had. I was like many out in this world who were hopeless and forgotten. I too have a story I do not wish to repeat. However, this story or two, has made me who I am today. To say I wished that my life had been different, well, that would almost be like regretting who I have become. Right?
No matter what we choose in our life, or where we are going, we have choices. Struggles and trials and hardships are part of our life on earth. I want to encourage you to find something that makes you smile. Something that can make you feel good inside and out, would be great to find for yourself. No one can do that for you. Only God. If you have never known such a relationship with him it is something worth trying. I am not preaching, nor am I qualified to. I just want to say, he has been my rock, my shield, my stay! He can be yours too!
If that is not where you are wanting to go, then immerse yourself in doing good for others, regardless. Find the good in all things, all people. Yes, I believe it is good in all. Sometimes bad rules but good is there, maybe just hiding, or suppressed by worry or pain.
Have a good day. Thanks to all who took the time to read my reflexive thoughts.
I shall see you on this side of the rainbow~!