Stages of our Life/ Poem by MwsR

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Into this world we all begin

Worthless we are without our skin

Not tainted though from other’s opinions

When we are born.

When things start to hurdle through our minds

Countless questions we dare not leave behind

Teenage years are simply search and find times

Times when we discover and explore

What else is there to live for

When we are young.

Accomplished and settled, that’s what you will find

When you have learnt so much from other’s minds.

Everything is within your very reach

Sometimes though, things can appear bleak.

Wanting a legacy and working to make it happen

The future seems so far off, yet within our grasps.

When we are an adult.

Memories cloud are minds of better days

Names of things and people start to fade.

Teaching and showing are our roles now

The past is certainly better than our future.

Things that were important seem trivial here

We just want to be loved and not forgotten.

When we are old.

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There it is again,

The constant nagging of my inner “voices”

Why won’t they leave me alone?                                         thNU5QMVE1

Do I really want them to though, because then I would have no real strength.

If they were to leave me in silence, alone, then what?

Would I be lost completely?

As if anything could defeat me

I will feel safe again.

I will have a calming relief like none other I’ve had before.

Yes, I will stand, and each time I will stand for longer.

Oh wait, what?

You would have me to fall, without a saving grace

You would lock me out from your special places, you’re last minute glances.

That is fine, for now, at least or unless my “inner wolf” starts to howl.

Then all my strength will be called upon.

If that happens I will not stay underfoot.

I will always stand, and when I stand I will eventually stand longer, stronger.

MwsR ❤

Instant/Poem/By MwsR

Instant

In an instant you were gone
Everything that happened went all wrong.
I think about you when I hear certain songs.
You were a chance that I was given
You gave me life, so I could start living.
It was without giving.
I was lost from the time you said goodbye
So many things I wanted to try
Things with you, I cannot lie.
You always felt like a dream
I really didn’t have anything real, it would seem.
Wondering why, why me.
How did you do it?
Go on with your life and not give a shit.
I couldn’t, never did, I felt split.
In an instant my life changed once again.
You died, and we never truly began.1057248_1280x720

 

Dad,poem

DAD, my first guy

Pictures are all I have

They are like a wound with a little salve.

You are and always will be

The very core part of me.

I know you existed I see and hear about it all.

I just wish you were still here for me to call.

Often you are in my head

I find myself thinking of you while looking ahead.

If one little wish I was able to make

It might be to see you, you know before the ache.

Dads are more than a name we give,

They are the ones that teach us how to grow and live.

I never got to have that with you

I often think about what if’s and it makes me blue.

Others get to call up their dads and talk

Some get to spend time with them and go for walks

I get to ponder and wonder a lot

About what I have and what I do not.

It is not your fault I am sure you would had stayed

But that wasn’t how your life was played.

Taken too soon from this earth and from your family

The ones who loved you and made you happy.

I guess some things never come to be

Like my wish for you to had known me.

Or maybe just to spend the day talking to you

And carrying on about the days that we went through.

It’s a good thing memories come around

Because that’s all some have, when their hearts start to frown.

Dad, I know if you knew me

You’d see a lot of you inside of me, probably.

You would have also known how much you meant to me…you know why,

After all you were my first guy.

“If” by Rudyard Kipling

If you can keep your head when all about you
Are losing theirs and blaming it on you;
If you can trust yourself when all men doubt you,
But make allowance for their doubting too:
If you can wait and not be tired by waiting,
Or, being lied about, don’t deal in lies,
Or being hated don’t give way to hating,
And yet don’t look too good, nor talk too wise;

If you can dream- -and not make dreams your master;
If you can think- -and not make thoughts your aim,
If you can meet with Triumph and Disaster
And treat those two impostors just the same:.
If you can bear to hear the truth you’ve spoken
Twisted by knaves to make a trap for fools,
Or watch the things you gave your life to, broken,
And stoop and build’em up with worn-out tools;

If you can make one heap of all your winnings
And risk it on one turn of pitch-and-toss,
And lose, and start again at your beginnings,
And never breathe a word about your loss:
If you can force your heart and nerve and sinew
To serve your turn long after they are gone,
And so hold on when there is nothing in you
Except the Will which says to them: ‘Hold on! ‘

If you can talk with crowds and keep your virtue,
Or walk with Kings- -nor lose the common touch,
If neither foes nor loving friends can hurt you,
If all men count with you, but none too much:
If you can fill the unforgiving minute
With sixty seconds’ worth of distance run,
Yours is the Earth and everything that’s in it,
And- -which is more- -you’ll be a Man, my son!
Rudyard Kipling

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Don’t even

Don’t tell me how to feel or how to be

There is certain complicated parts to me.

I do not think it is your business and I am not looking for approval.

I spent my younger days worrying about that

What people thought when they looked at me

There is a certain stance people like to take,

They are all a bunch that’s filled with a whole lot of fake.

I see they have nothing better to do

Maybe I should pose to them a question or two.maxresdefault

“Do you act this way at home? or

“Is this reason why you are so alone?

I don’t think they would like me to

That is why instead I choose to talk with just a few.

A few of the best un-judgemental people I’ve met/

There is something special when people just accept you

Your flaws and faults, to name a few

Something that lasts when things make a mess of your life

There is a few who will stand by your side.

Don’t even pretend to understand all I have written

You probably think I am reading someone else’s notes.

Look at your life, and

See if you fit there

There is no more room for you in mine, so beware

I am done, finished , and through with it all

So long, see ya, wouldn’t want to be ya.

                                                                MwsR ❤

In the end

In the end will there be peace

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Maybe I should beg while on my knees.

I feel this pressure from above

To take care of those I love.

The need is like none else.

It starts somewhere deep inside myself.

I wish to be close and thought of often

Not left out or forgotten

I hope to have the best of days

Just to heal or mend

I want this all before the END.

                                                MwsR ❤

 

Gone From This Old World….

Struggling hard to come to terms with this feeling

But never  relief in sight.

I even dreamt about you, oh so many times.

What you would be like, what would you say


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My birth dad! Johnny

Only if your life hadn’t ended that  way.

I have a picture or two but not really enough

I think I have studied them a lot, etched you in my mind

What my tears and heart cannot find.


I see you liked cats, wow, that is so me

I favor you too, a lot, it would seem.

I know you smoked Marlboro cigarettes

That you liked to play practical jokes,


I know your eyes were blue, as mine are,

You not being here has left a terrible scar.

I so would had loved to show you my life,

Tell you stories of things and tell you goodnight.


It just wasn’t our time, I guess

Happy endings for us were not meant to be.

I still think of you as often as I breath.

Gone from this old world, but not truly from me

See, you were my father and always will be. 

                                                                                                            MwsR ❤