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Strength by MwsR Writings

The walls I built were never for you, they were for me. The strength it took to keep them erect was much harder than you’d expect. Then one day. many years later, the walls no longer mattered.
It was the strength that I had gained from all of that pain. My world would be forever changed but my heart would live on, go on, and be much more than I’d ever hoped for.
The remnants of the walls remain and sometimes I still sense their presence. I no longer wait with bated breath but with rememberance of what was, what could be.
You’ll never know this because you are not me.
So don’t try to lessen my strength with rumors, you aren’t privy to such a state as mine. I will not run away, or resort to a corner to pine. You will only see what I choose to show you, what I allow. There it is, it is the time and it is now.
Don’t think to hard on this, you will certain be amiss.
Travel on from here, I implore. You don’t belong, not anymore.

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Sadness. By MwsR

Too much because of too little
A lot because of the feelings.
Time is too late because the heart was too fake
Endless because it has overflowed the soul.
Infinite it will remain.

Without warning it climbed onto your very life
Taking under its own self, the only escape.
Parched are your eyes from losing too many tears, while seeing so clearly.
If bandaids could cover one’s inner hurts.

Desperately anguish survives
To merely show one of what hold that it has on them
Breaking anything that gets in it’s path
It will not waiver from it’s wrath.
To simply exist is it’s special torture.

Longing becomes survival
Survival just means to be here or there
Nothing really to gaze upon and understand
Imaginatively giving you it’s reprimand.
One chance, backed into a corner
Frantic for escape
When this sadness is the captor.
Sadness will have the upper hand.

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Think about it….

Caleb

I’m not sure why but God chose you

He left my heart with a hole

I still find myself looking for you, wishing.

With each can of catfood I open I see you in my mind

Your eagerness to devour all the contents inside.

Special is a word I would describe our relationship as

Special as in extra wonderful

You were the sweetest, most gentle cat.

Your eyes were like marbles with green hues and shades of gold.

Watching you pass from this life towards the great beyond was,

Difficult and agonizing to say the least.

As I sang to you like you always loved,

I assured you it was okay to pass.

I begged God to ease your suffering and let you eternally rest.

You are and were my little “love”.

The morning greeter, the kindest cat,

Forever may my songs ease your heart, and God hold you close.

Something so great as you, God needed to.

In loving memory and sorrow at the loss of my cat, Caleb…

MwsRwritings, MWSR 2023, September

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Can’t Live Behind Walls by MwsR

Nothing is extra ordinary inside of walls
Little is seen and very little heard
Outside those same walls I can breathe
I can help my soul find reprieve.
I can’t live behind walls because I won’t smell new life
I won’t be able to see the wondrous creation
Feel my surroundings through smell, touch, taste, and sight.
Behind walls, things become stagnant
Everything can grow clutter
Foresight can become lost
Reality can get skewed
Outside the walls
Sounds errupt
Touch becomes intense
Hearing is superb
And darkness contains a beauty of its own.
I can’t just stay behind the walls
I’d merely exist
I’d would of missed my first raindrop
Never would of pulled off my first tomato
I would be miserable indeed
Outside of any wall you never know what awaits
You can go for a jog or simply skate
You may find joy and endless matter
Feel the cold, fall as you slip on ice
Eat lunch at a park
Never inside would I stay happy
Too much is outside for me not to be
Spring will come and winter will leave
I can’t stay behind the walls
And miss a chance or miss an event
I can’t stay behind a brick and mortar wall
Or behind one made from tin
I would never stay in
I need walls only for cover and for things to stay safe
But my heart is outside the walls, out from behind all walls.

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Thoughts

💜Thoughts on LOVE💘 by MwsR

Love survives where resilient lives.
It’s not always possible to love without much work.
The easiest love we have usually is from innocence or the kind like when you look at that newborn for the first time, maybe a first boyfriend or girlfriend, getting your favorite car….or job…. or vacation.

Real love takes effort to flourish. It takes a person who can overlook imperfections. Forgiving wrongdoings is part of that.
Love is not selfish, it gives up comfort often in exchange for pain.

Love sometimes can make us insane.
Choosing to love….or should I write… Loving despite the great disappointment, hurtful actions, or broken promises …. is what we try over and over when little good is in that someone or something and is hard to see upfront.

Being loved ….letting someone love you ….is when you can see what you are from their eyes and in loving yourself and believing you are worthy of LOVE.
It’s hard to forget REAL love, nor would we ever really choose to.

Christian love is Christ-like love. It is love that does not seek anything in return. It is a love we can only express if Christ lives in us. It is the greatest, selfless feeling towards others.