Poem

Real by MwsR

Just like a song

You’re playing your life

All wrong.

Never happy

Never satisfied

No, I’m not being sappy!

In an instant

Your life here was no more

That day you were persistent.

You chose to run

I tried to stop you

But it had only just begun.

A hole inside me

Where once you were

Your choice, you see.

Moving on

Staying still

A different pawn

Choices we make

Can bend us or be all too much

Try being real now…not fake.

Standing in decisions

Means getting dirty sometimes

Stitching up a life means first cleaning the incisions.

Sometimes it’s in following dreams

You forget to fix the holes

Never fully fixing it, it seems.

Let the rest of it

Be real, not a mimic

So you’ll have a life you fit.

Jasper by MwsR

May the world see the beauty and sweetness in your eyes

Hoping that inside you will know it too, and will always see

Beautiful spirit that shines within all you do

A gift from above, it’s true

I love you.

I hope you always know I am here to stand by your side

That you feel warmth in your heart, like the sunlight

You are so special to us all

I hope you never feel small, but tall

I love you.

You will be changing, who ever meets you

Can’t wait to see all you can do!

I love you.

Jasper, my heart grew the day you came into being

You’ve definitely gave my life more meaning!

My grandson, with eyes crystal blue

I will always love you.

Poem

War With Ourselves, by MwsR

Do you battle anyone who chooses differently than you do?

Is there not anything good that happens to you?

Maybe turn and look real hard at your own self,

Look at the blame you’ve bestowed on everyone else.

Maybe, just maybe, it happened the way it did because of your actions.

Just maybe it was because of your reactions.

The hardest thing can be analyzing

Seeing what’s wrong and start focusing to remove the things that are paralyzing.

Instead of laying blame,

Try to get rid of your own shame.

Nothing can be done until you stop and think

Sometimes things happen in a blink.

Quit talking, gossiping, and stop tearing down

We all have an occasion to wear a frown.

Maybe it’s you, you are the one

Maybe our war is with ourselves, not with someone.

Poem

Seemingly by MwsR

Feelings are all over the place

Can’t seem to keep a smile on my face

Looking for remedies

But none seem to help me

I’ve tried being positive

But it is hard when you’re always the one to give

Fake smiles are my new mask

A seemingly happy display, a hard task

Wishing in my mind that things would drastically change

Feeling very uncomfortable, somewhat strange

Guess I took all the times I had for granted

Suddenly it’s like nothing was even planted

Things and people disappear,

At least from my sight, especially those I held dear.

Why must things be such a struggle?

I wish I could save things and leep them in a bubble.

Protect them, enjoy them, just one more time

Before I loose my mind.

Everything dear to me

Flees from me

I am beginning to see a pattern

Never on my time table

Never anything stable

It gets hard, it seems wrong

Why does this sort of thing happen so long?

Poem Share

Mother and Poet by Elizabeth Barrett BrowningI.

Dead ! One of them shot by the sea in the east,
And one of them shot in the west by the sea.
Dead ! both my boys ! When you sit at the feast
And are wanting a great song for Italy free,
Let none look at me !

II.
Yet I was a poetess only last year,
And good at my art, for a woman, men said ;
But this woman, this, who is agonized here,
— The east sea and west sea rhyme on in her head
For ever instead.

III.
What art can a woman be good at ? Oh, vain !
What art is she good at, but hurting her breast
With the milk-teeth of babes, and a smile at the pain ?
Ah boys, how you hurt ! you were strong as you pressed,
And I proud, by that test.

IV.
What art’s for a woman ? To hold on her knees
Both darlings ! to feel all their arms round her throat,
Cling, strangle a little ! to sew by degrees
And ‘broider the long-clothes and neat little coat ;
To dream and to doat.

V.
To teach them … It stings there ! I made them indeed
Speak plain the word country. I taught them, no doubt,
That a country’s a thing men should die for at need.
I prated of liberty, rights, and about
The tyrant cast out.

VI.
And when their eyes flashed … O my beautiful eyes ! …
I exulted ; nay, let them go forth at the wheels
Of the guns, and denied not. But then the surprise
When one sits quite alone ! Then one weeps, then one kneels !
God, how the house feels !

VII.
At first, happy news came, in gay letters moiled
With my kisses, — of camp-life and glory, and how
They both loved me ; and, soon coming home to be spoiled
In return would fan off every fly from my brow
With their green laurel-bough.

VIII.
Then was triumph at Turin : `Ancona was free !’
And some one came out of the cheers in the street,
With a face pale as stone, to say something to me.
My Guido was dead ! I fell down at his feet,
While they cheered in the street.

IX.
I bore it ; friends soothed me ; my grief looked sublime
As the ransom of Italy. One boy remained
To be leant on and walked with, recalling the time
When the first grew immortal, while both of us strained
To the height he had gained.

X.
And letters still came, shorter, sadder, more strong,
Writ now but in one hand, `I was not to faint, —
One loved me for two — would be with me ere long :
And Viva l’ Italia ! — he died for, our saint,
Who forbids our complaint.”

XI.
My Nanni would add, `he was safe, and aware
Of a presence that turned off the balls, — was imprest
It was Guido himself, who knew what I could bear,
And how ’twas impossible, quite dispossessed,
To live on for the rest.”

XII.
On which, without pause, up the telegraph line
Swept smoothly the next news from Gaeta : — Shot.
Tell his mother. Ah, ah, ` his, ‘ ` their ‘ mother, — not ` mine, ‘
No voice says “My mother” again to me. What !
You think Guido forgot ?

XIII.
Are souls straight so happy that, dizzy with Heaven,
They drop earth’s affections, conceive not of woe ?
I think not. Themselves were too lately forgiven
Through THAT Love and Sorrow which reconciled so
The Above and Below.

XIV.
O Christ of the five wounds, who look’dst through the dark
To the face of Thy mother ! consider, I pray,
How we common mothers stand desolate, mark,
Whose sons, not being Christs, die with eyes turned away,
And no last word to say !

XV.
Both boys dead ? but that’s out of nature. We all
Have been patriots, yet each house must always keep one.
‘Twere imbecile, hewing out roads to a wall ;
And, when Italy ‘s made, for what end is it done
If we have not a son ?

XVI.
Ah, ah, ah ! when Gaeta’s taken, what then ?
When the fair wicked queen sits no more at her sport
Of the fire-balls of death crashing souls out of men ?
When the guns of Cavalli with final retort
Have cut the game short ?

XVII.
When Venice and Rome keep their new jubilee,
When your flag takes all heaven for its white, green, and red,
When you have your country from mountain to sea,
When King Victor has Italy’s crown on his head,
(And I have my Dead) —

XVIII.
What then ? Do not mock me. Ah, ring your bells low,
And burn your lights faintly ! My country is there,
Above the star pricked by the last peak of snow :
My Italy ‘s THERE, with my brave civic Pair,
To disfranchise despair !

XIX.
Forgive me. Some women bear children in strength,
And bite back the cry of their pain in self-scorn ;
But the birth-pangs of nations will wring us at length
Into wail such as this — and we sit on forlorn
When the man-child is born.

XX.
Dead ! One of them shot by the sea in the east,
And one of them shot in the west by the sea.
Both ! both my boys ! If in keeping the feast
You want a great song for your Italy free,
Let none look at me !

[This was Laura Savio, of Turin, a poetess and patriot, whose sons were killed at Ancona and Gaeta.]

Poem

As If

by MwsR

As if my hurting was not enough

You create this journey that’s tough,

Wanting desperately to be “normal”, feel normal.

This is my normal.

I hear what you say, my heart wants to stay

My head wants to walk away.

Seems things are so scattered now

What can I possibly do anyhow.

Like a switch that’s been used too long

I feel the weakness from it all, I’m not that strong.

Must I explain everything

Must I endure so much pain

“ you’ll be alright dear”, is all I hear, it’s insane.

Some people bounce through life

I fell into mine.

I didn’t ask for the harmful effects

From someone else’s neglect.

I pray for help

For strength, for sanity, for clarity

No more pain, loss of caring, and no more disparity.

If I could just heal, I’d be alright

As if it’s too much for me to ask

Such a burden, such a task.

If it’s God’s plan

I’ll do all I can.

The Need To Love… MwsR

We all share this need to be loved

And to give love,

Why are people so scared of what they don’t know?

It could simply be the color, the race, or the culture that sends us back to the stone age

We all need to need to love,

Regardless of our differences, notions, and actions

To be loved by someone, whom you really don’t know

That is golden.

The need to feel the love from someone, when we are feeling bad

Feeling scared, feeling powerless

Love can simply be a form of respect for others

To love someone doesn’t mean a form of romance

It could be in a second glance

It is an action that we show, regardless of what we have been told

Regardless of what we have been taught, or the cause for a fight, or the sins of another

The need to love is important not just to us but for the rest of “us”.

Love all, in spite of a possibility of harm

Love so that you stay human.

The need to love is in you

That is all.

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