No backup
No help
Like a cumbersome welp
So lonely
So sad
Feelings that make me mad
Maybe someday
Maybe never
Perhaps will last forever.
MwsR
No backup
No help
Like a cumbersome welp
So lonely
So sad
Feelings that make me mad
Maybe someday
Maybe never
Perhaps will last forever.
MwsR
It hurts, but I can’t bleed
My own feelings, that I hold down deep.
Love I hold, keeps me a prisoner
Those with boldness, destructors
Hurts like a boil, mine
Festers up each time
No escape, no reprieve
Why am I the only one who can see?
Perhaps my curse, their will is my stone
Even here in my own home.
MwsR

The earth is my go to place
I feel at ease in that dirty space
I can touch it and know it is real
Rubbing my fingers through it as I feel.
Something about the beams from the sun
Makes me feel so purposeful and needed,some
I can make whatever I wish,
Whatever I plant I can eat on my dish
It is rewarding and so special to me
The things that my hands make to be
Earth, sun, and a heart that can create
This earth can surely be great.
MwsR >3
You had the power
I was weak
You took my trust
I gave it to you
No love that was true
That is what I saw, when I saw you.
You stole my innocence
I played the game
You tookmy respect
I took the blame
You hurt me deeper
I felt the pain
You were not a real dad
I only had your name
Lies you told
Lies that I felt
You never will get that chance again
I will never let you.
MwsR ❤️
Grow slower
Learn more
Reap benefits
Sow gladness
Teach love
Grab memories
Leap gracefully
Stand firm
Believe miracles
Forgive always
Ask thoughtfully
Preserve yourself
Linger if needed
Leave when asked
Finish everything
Cling without smothering
Test your skills
Work with pride
Hug others often
Lift another up
Be the change needed
Save your own self
Remember to be strong
Pray for our world
Cherish everything you have
Push towards your goals
Accomplish what needs accomplishing
In the end what matters?
You, me, them, and us.
MwsR
By MwsR
The hardest part of growing old, I think,
Is knowing that you could lose someone from your life.
Time runs out so fast for some.
Often times I reflect on days past
Things I did without a second glance
Those things are not important so much, anymore.
I think growing old is a gift to some,
For others, going on in this life missing those that passed
Is a cruel thing to have to do.
Often we do not see the need to plan or get established
With regret we reflect on the moments lost in that hesitant period.
The good has a way of helping us,
While the bad, it can totally ruin us.
Old is not so great when you have not lived fully,
Or said the things you should of.
Life that had no real justice, perhaps
That is the regret for a lot
Righting wrongs, working our way to a peaceful retirement
Getting old, is possibly the journey one must take alone.
No one is going to be there for you in your mind.
The things that haunt you or yours to bear by yourself.
In getting old you will learn what means the most to you.
When you are sitting and drinking that cup of Joe, you will see.
Walks will take on a new meaning, you will see more beauty
You will tell that loved one what they mean to you, without forgetting
You will jot down notes to help you with reminders
But the sacred ones are stored in your mind.
Getting old is something to take notice of,
It will humble you.
It may send your thoughts down that path of the ultimate end, to you.
Or with any luck it will help make those around you grateful for you.
And make you more grateful too.
Old age is both a blessing and a curse.
Which ever way you choose to look at it.
Mom (my biological one)
I searched for years
Shed many tears
Hoping that one day
I could find my way
To you
I looked at faces
In all sorts of places
Compared my features
To all I first met
I asked their names with no regret
For it was a search and find mission
A definite decision
To find you
I was trying to be true
To the life you gave to me
To the memories of a past I had not seen
I wanted to sit with you
I wanted you to be true
Despite the circumstances
I didn’t fret from taking chances
To finally find my one first mom
The only one I came from.
Mwsr❤️
Today…years ago
My mom died
I cried
They tried
Today…
I am sad
Others feel bad
There’s some mad
Today…
Life changed
Funeral was arranged
Others acted strange
Today…
Life as I knew was forever changed
Others feels my pain
Memories remain.
MwsR >3