No, So, Maybe

No backup

No help

Like a cumbersome welp

So lonely

So sad

Feelings that make me mad

Maybe someday

Maybe never

Perhaps will last forever.

MwsR

It Hurts

It hurts, but I can’t bleed

My own feelings, that I hold down deep.

Love I hold, keeps me a prisoner

Those with boldness, destructors

Hurts like a boil, mine

Festers up each time

No escape, no reprieve

Why am I the only one who can see?

Perhaps my curse, their will is my stone

Even here in my own home.

MwsR

Poem

See the source image

The earth is my go to place

I feel at ease in that dirty space

I can touch it and know it is real

Rubbing my fingers through it as I feel.

Something about the beams from the sun

Makes me feel so purposeful and needed,some

I can make whatever I wish,

Whatever I plant I can eat on my dish

It is rewarding and so special to me

The things that my hands make to be

Earth, sun, and a heart that can create

This earth can surely be great.

MwsR >3

Never(poem)

You had the power

I was weak

You took my trust

I gave it to you

No love that was true

That is what I saw, when I saw you.

You stole my innocence

I played the game

You tookmy respect

I took the blame

You hurt me deeper

I felt the pain

You were not a real dad

I only had your name

Lies you told

Lies that I felt

You never will get that chance again

I will never let you.

MwsR ❤️

Poem

Grow slower

Learn more

Reap benefits

Sow gladness

Teach love

Grab memories

Leap gracefully

Stand firm

Believe miracles

Forgive always

Ask thoughtfully

Preserve yourself

Linger if needed

Leave when asked

Finish everything

Cling without smothering

Test your skills

Work with pride

Hug others often

Lift another up

Be the change needed

Save your own self

Remember to be strong

Pray for our world

Cherish everything you have

Push towards your goals

Accomplish what needs accomplishing

In the end what matters?

You, me, them, and us.

MwsR

Poem

GETTING OLD

By MwsR

The hardest part of growing old, I think,

Is knowing that you could lose someone from your life.

Time runs out so fast for some.

Often times I reflect on days past

Things I did without a second glance

Those things are not important so much, anymore.

I think growing old is a gift to some,

For others, going on in this life missing those that passed

Is a cruel thing to have to do.

Often we do not see the need to plan or get established

With regret we reflect on the moments lost in that hesitant period.

The good has a way of helping us,

While the bad, it can totally ruin us.

Old is not so great when you have not lived fully,

Or said the things you should of.

Life that had no real justice, perhaps

That is the regret for a lot

Righting wrongs, working our way to a peaceful retirement

Getting old, is possibly the journey one must take alone.

No one is going to be there for you in your mind.

The things that haunt you or yours to bear by yourself.

In getting old you will learn what means the most to you.

When you are sitting and drinking that cup of Joe, you will see.

Walks will take on a new meaning, you will see more beauty

You will tell that loved one what they mean to you, without forgetting

You will jot down notes to help you with reminders

But the sacred ones are stored in your mind.

Getting old is something to take notice of,

It will humble you.

It may send your thoughts down that path of the ultimate end, to you.

Or with any luck it will help make those around you grateful for you.

And make you more grateful too.

Old age is both a blessing and a curse.

Which ever way you choose to look at it.

Biological Mom poem

Mom (my biological one)

I searched for years

Shed many tears

Hoping that one day

I could find my way

To you

I looked at faces

In all sorts of places

Compared my features

To all I first met

I asked their names with no regret

For it was a search and find mission

A definite decision

To find you

I was trying to be true

To the life you gave to me

To the memories of a past I had not seen

I wanted to sit with you

I wanted you to be true

Despite the circumstances

I didn’t fret from taking chances

To finally find my one first mom

The only one I came from.

Mwsr❤️

Poem

TODAY

Today…years ago

My mom died

I cried

They tried

Today…

I am sad

Others feel bad

There’s some mad

Today…

Life changed

Funeral was arranged

Others acted strange

Today…

Life as I knew was forever changed

Others feels my pain

Memories remain.

MwsR >3