To allow yourself to be loved, truly, you have to allow yourself to be somewhat vulnerable.
It does not mean you surrender, just that you are open to feeling, receiving, and reciprocating affectionate love.
Accept love.
MwsR ❤
Category: Thoughts
Thoughts Over Coffee
I am struggling with so many burdens, this holiday season. I always do. I will be okay though.
Part of living is feeling, and sometimes it hurts to feel. That should not stop us, you, or me.
Take what you feel, put it into perspective, set it aside on a “back burner”for a while if you must. We all need a little time, to just rest.
Pick those feelings back up and work your way through them. Possibly a minute at a time, maybe a few days, possibly years. Take the needed time. Until one day those feelings have moved to a different way or position in your mind.
It is okay to feel bad, cry, close off yourself (only for a short time) just don’t let yourself stay down.
It gets very lonely at the bottom of feelings, you don’t want that.
To everything, every feeling, every hurt, give them a proper place in your head, your mind. Then move them out or better yet, replace them with better ones.
I am not a psychologist, doctor, or expert, but I have and do feel this thing called LIFE.
Have a good rest of your day.
Remember…
You deserve unconditional love.
You are worth it!
Mwsr ❤
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Adoption/Holidays, hurt! Thoughts
I always have a hard time during the Holiday season. It is like someone found a knife that has been stuck inside me all my life and slowly they twist it, and it reminds me it is there… MwsR ❤
If I can be honest with you, it is hard to imagine a holiday season that has not brought me equal shares of joy and pain. I have a lovely immediate family and you would think that they alone could heal my broken heart. Sadly, no one ever can, not really. I am my own worst reminder of things that could have been…
We have all been there and done that. We can be our own worst enemies when that happens.
I hate having to “wish upon a star”, I want all the stars wish for me!!!!!!!!
I am tired of feeling lost, unconnected, forgotten, dismissed, and so forth. For me, it is in relation to my childhood and my adoption. I know that part, I really do. I have an issue with all of it, how I was deceived, lost, and well…not thought of. I should of had many years side by side with those that I so desperately searched for my whole young and young adult life.
This is just me, being as real as I can be!
So much time has passed, so many lies left unsolved, so many wrong decisions, and so little cherished moments. Sometimes I actually must be having a pity party for myself, because it feels so all-consuming and like I am a rat in a trap, with no way to ever escape.
I feel cheated, I feel lots of sorrow, lots of hurt. I may never truly heal from all the damage that those I looked to. to be my helpers and parents, and caregivers and such, have done. I am angry, sad and in a whole lot of confusion. I wish I knew why my life turned out into what it did, and why no one ever wanted me to know my birth family and why it was that others kept me from those who would go on to be a great part in who I am and became. Holidays remind me of that, all of that and more.
Holidays are definitely not for me to feel special or good , I have come to this conclusion. I must just accept that the past should stay past and I should move forward and without regret. EASIER SAID THAN DONE. I sometimes think, I could swap my life from someone else’s but what good would that be, I mean really. I do not know anyone I would want to switch lives with. I would not have my husband, kids the family I have now.
I guess I will try and quit whining. I have a good life, people that love me and a life that makes me better, want to do better, and helps me want to be a good person.
Moral of this story….”whining”
It is to make the most of every day you have been given and to go forward and not stay in the past. A person’s past can and often does make a prisoner of those who go there. Being adopted was not the worst thing in my life, and it really should of never been bad to begin with. It was though, and in living through it, moving through it and past it, I have some valuable lessons in the school of mankind. I take with me the ability to stay back in that hurt and pain or to help others move from their own. I can help others to feel that there is a way from all the past mistakes, hurts, and grasps of those who seek to hurt us. We can empower others, ourselves and we can move into a beautiful place with our lives.
Holidays are such a reminder of things that could have been , for me… They do not have to be for you. I can take that memory and lay it down when I get tired, when I feel anxiety or pressure. I can take those feelings and place them at the feet of the one in whom I believe has the power to carry those burdens for me, his name is Jesus. He alone not any man, can help me, can help you and can help anyone who desperately seeks his help.
No I am not trying to force a religious view on you, or help you to accept Jesus, that i your own decision, you alone make that . But I am here to help others in what I do or do not write, what I say or do not say… You get the jest. Please do not let past things take your future joy, your future peace or your future.
Will Holidays always suck for me? Yes and NO. I can choose what to allow into my inner peace. So can you! See just typing this different outlook than I started out with.
Here is to a wonderful Holiday season for all and a remembrance of the strength you have inside yourself, and that it has always been there.
MwsR ❤
Thoughts… Emotional Abuse and such!
Personal opinion and thoughts are solely my own, mentioning of course, the use of other material in a point . My opinion is not for everyone and I understand and respect that. Please show the same courtesy! Thanks
I wanted to write today, on something. I am not really certain how to go about writing, though. As I browse down the list of posts on my WordPress reader option, I am taken back by some posts that bring things in my own life to the forefront.
Isn’t it odd how something you can see or read can cause many things to flood into your mind? I am concerned , not only today but everyday on the lives of others around our world. There is a lot of people missing out on life and living it to the fullest, me included. I see people walking around with so much on their plates, hearts, and minds. I constantly hear of tragedies and trials that await people, everywhere in our world. Personally it makes me sad. We have to be careful not to take upon our heart the troubles and sadness of others in a manner where it takes over and spills into our own lives. Sadly, it has trapped me some in knowing what those things have been personally, for me, and replaying them while watching them play out, in others lives.
I hope you can follow me. My mind talks so fast, it is hard to put down into words as my fingers try to keep up. I am often concerned to no avail to, honestly. I cannot personally take care of everybody or their problems, and if I am honest, no one is asking me to. Do you follow me? We cannot personally do everything we need to do, we are simply human.
Okay enough about the depressing thoughts of not being able to help solve everyone’s issues or being able to change things.
I saw a post this morning about emotional abuse and it had me thinking… After reading the first part of my post, you probably already know I think. Hahaha. the emotional abuse post had me thinking on how people everywhere in any kind of relationship experiences emotional abuse on some level and in some way. So, It usually does not last long or cause substantial damage, but if we were to think about it, it has more than not happened. So, what makes it abuse? I think it is when someone uses their motives, ways, words, etc., to sway or move, or damage, or imprison another. If it causes the other person to feel less than desirable, un important, or damaged, it is abuse. Abuse is ugly and it usually has a keeper and a prisoner to it.
Emotional abuse is wrong, so if you are a victim or you see it happening, ask and seek out help. A lot of places stay anonymous and let you stay hidden enough that you can freely seek help.
Living in a situation less than desirable is hard enough, but living without love and acceptance is a hard “pill” to swallow.
So,
With all that being posted, “thank God”I am free to think on other things. I really let things dwell deep into my soul. I felt I needed to post about that. Perhaps someone reading this has been there, is there, or like me, struggles everyday to release their selves from past abuse.
Did you know…that by writing posts, or what have you’ s that you directly and indirectly influence another’s life? You DO.
Please be good to others, please be kind to yourselves!!!!!!!!!!!!!
We get this one lifetime to do good, use it wisely.
I shall see you this side of the RAINBOW!!!
MwsR ❤
My thoughts/>>>>Let’s Talk About Bullying!!!! — Mws R Writings
Stomp Out Bullying kick-starts National Bullying Prevention Month in October.
This year, the group has declared October 1 World Day of Bullying Prevention.
On this day, schools around the world unite to end bullying. Students and teachers wear blue to promote the effort. Why blue? In many cultures, the color represents peace.
Stomp Out Bullying is a national antibullying and anti-cyberbullying organization. It helps more than 5 million students resolve bullying situations. It also educates students in 15,000 schools about bullying prevention.https://www.msn.com/en-us/kids/people-places/bye-to-bullying/ar-AAADS7f?ocid=spartanntp
https://americanspcc.org/bullying/statistics-and-information/ Bullying Statistics 160,000 kids per day skips school for fear of being bullied.1 When bystanders intervene, bullying stops within 10 seconds 57% of the time.2 The 3 B’s of Bullying 1.Bullier – 30% of youth admit to bullying 2.Bullied – 1 in 3 students bullied at school 3.Bystander – 70% have witnessed bullying […]
via My thoughts/>>>>Let’s Talk About Bullying!!!! — Mws R Writings
Let’s talk about … “Nose Uppity People”
Hey guys,
Something has been weighing on my mind for some time now.
It has to do with people who think they are superior to others. Whether these people come from an organization, cult, church, work place, or wherever, you will always find some people who look down their nose on others.
An example is…
A lady whom I will not mention, thinks because she has not had an easy life due to her declining health, and personal circumstances, she finds it hard to accept any other person’s circumstance as dire straights or a good reason for not getting out and about, for whatever that reason may be.
Don’t you hate it when one person makes a decision to snub another because they think that person is making excuses and all? I do. I do not pretend to know someone elses’ predicaments that they personally deal with, nor should I hold that right, but only to my own self. It is clearly not the way we as humans with hearts should be.
I personally think that for another to quickly condemn or look down their noses at another, well, that means they themselves have something of an issue in their own hearts. I could be over interpreting but I think not.
Just to let you in on a secret or two…
People deal and handle differently each circumstance, event, crisis, and what have you. No one can tell another person how to do that, nor should they, It is wrong, to assume that since you can handle things, another might also. Also, who the heck are you to say for another person, what is their personal battles?
You cannot!
Please if you have been doing this, stop!
No one comes with instructions. No one comes with a plan. We all deal and have different opinions and feelings on all matters of our lives. We are individuals. What may be a “drop of water” in the bucket to you may be a “waterfall“of emotions for another. Please do not think you are a superior in that. You aren’t.
I am just trying to say in as simple terms as I can….
We ARE ALL INDIVIDUALS with different backgrounds, behaviors, feelings, thoughts, emotions, etc
If you have nothing good to say, think, or implement into another’s life, think twice, stay nice!
Thanks for reading, see you on this side of the rainbow, folks!
MwsR ❤
September 11th, 2001/Personal Share and Thoughts
I remember that day as clearly as if it were today. I was a younger mother with three young kids. I had the news playing on the television. I always watched Good Morning America, a news program. I was folding baskets of clothes and drinking my coffee.
My coffee that I drank was black and black would soon serve as a description for that day. September 11th it was. Black day in the world’s history.
We lost so many lives that day. I see people in other countries always dying and losing their lives, but until this day, Americans were not tragically affected as much as we were in our lifetime, with all that death and terrorism.
You sometimes take for granted that you are safe, that you are not going to be affected by what the world has going on. Unfortunately though, we, Americans were. I am an American and if I had been in another place in this world, this tragedy would still strike a sense of uncertainty, of being unsafe, and of loss. I cannot speak for the other parts of our world but I am certain tragedy no matter where, who is involved, or how it is in reference to us, we all are impacted.
I believe my naive sense of being safe in America left that day in September.
I was watching this tragedy unfold live on my American news program. Even my kids had a sense that something was really wrong. I remember calling my husband at his work and feeling so panicked and scared at the same time. He always tries to reassure me of things so he was desperately trying to make sense of what I was telling him at the very same time. He was in shock and he tuned in to news on the radio station he was listening to. It was so fresh and so new that I remember the news correspondents were trying to make a judgement as to what they were hearing . You could tell they were struggling to find the words to say what they were being told and what they were seeing for the first time. It soon turned to panic in their eyes and I found myself glued to the television. I was trying to come to terms with it all.
Never before had something like this and of the same magnitude happened in my lifetime. I was just all struck.
I think the hardest thing to watch was the many individuals that were jumping from the high-rise buildings and out of the windows to free themselves from being burned alive. That was terrible. I have no words to describe that. I had o take my young kids into another room so that they would not see me cry or see those poor helpless people choose the fate of their own lives. They would willing jump rather than BURN alive. How devastating is that. Imagine you were their loved ones and you saw them jump. The news replayed these kinds of scenes so much you felt like you knew every detail of those days following.
I think that I shall never look at another high-rise building the same. I now dread being in a hotel, even, that has many floors. Even though I was not in those buildings it has greatly impacted me.
Those Twin Towers were huge and those people , some of them, never had a chance to survive.
I still feel the impact of that all .
What kind of person does it take to bring such devastation to another group of individuals, that you do not know?
I often try to think of who all was in those buildings. I think of the child who might had been visiting their father or mother at work. I think of the mother who lost her child or children to this event. I also think of the many people who realized they were not going to make it and what went through their minds as they accepted their fate.
It is so sad and disheartening to know that those people, their families and their friend’s lives were so abruptly changed forever. They will try to go on with their daily lives but the world will remind them always of that day. They will see it on the television all the time and read it in the papers and books and magazines. They will never get a chance to let it rest.
They will have mourning for their lifetime.
I am so sorry for that. I have a hard enough time with personal mourning of a loved one myself. To see that magnified would be so unbearable.
As if life came to a stand still, that day back in September 11, 2001, I saw one of the saddest events that forever will shake our minds, our security, and our faith. I saw a nation come together, but I also saw it crumbled just a little more. I lost hope in some of humanity that day as well. Those who did this horrendous thing, they are not human in my mind. They were cruel.
I hope we all learn something from this tragedy. I hope we became stronger together because of it. I also hope that everyone knows we are not guaranteed a tomorrow and we should live fully today.
As on September 11, 2001, I will remember, and so will all of America and even beyond.
We all should stand together, less we all fall.
Thanks for reading!
MwsR ❤
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