Blue~The Garden

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The Garden

Often when we reflect on the days so long ago, we remember with a sense of fondness…

This was how Blue remembered. She remembered the talks, the smells, the taste, and the precious moments, she had with her grandmother. What Blue remembered was something she would keep with her for all time.

Today was a very humid day and Blue has dressed accordingly. She had her one-piece romper on. It had spaghetti straps that tied at the joining and it was striped like the zebra that came off of a cartoon she had seen. All the colors were really bright and bold, not at all matching Blue’s character. Blue was shyer and reserved. That, however, did not stop her mom from buying her the most daring outfits ever. This romper was a short romper. It was kind of neat. She enjoyed it, she did not have to worry about her butt crack showing as she bent down to do something. This was really important to her. Funny but true. She did not want anyone looking at her butt crack. It is funny what some view as important while others think nothing more about it.

Today Blue was heading to the garden with her grandmother. She loved going to the garden and thought it was just the best time, ever. Usually, in the garden, she would help her grandmother pick weeds and such. Sometimes if the vegetables were ripe enough she would get to pick and eat them. Just enough though, as to have enough for others. Her favorite food was the little round tomatoes. Her grandmother called them “Tommie Toes”. They were round and small, just the right size for her to stuff into her mouth. Her next favorite was the corn on the cob. Her grandmother always had lots of stalks of corn. She was to help her grandmother shuck the corn and then freeze some and then there was plenty for an evening snack. Fresh butter that her grandmother churned was a perfect condiment to the wonderful fresh corn.

Blue loved helping her grandmother and there was always something that needed to be done. Especially when there were green beans. Blue helped de-string the green beans and pop them into three pieces, each. This would be a long task seeing as they need three pieces from one bean. Usually, Blue pulled strings off and broke them into three parts but today she wanted to wash the beans in cold water. She was not as fast as her grandmother. her grandmother often employed the help of her sister as well. Those two could work way faster than Blue. Blue’s grandmother still enjoyed her help, however. Blue never really liked green beans but would eat her grandmother’s because her grandmother would fix them with potatoes and bacon fat. The taste was out of this world.

Blue’s grandmother dressed appropriate, for heading out into the thick garden. She wore knee socks over her polyester pants and wore a smock top that had snaps for closures. This must have been because it was easy to take on and off and cooler than a regular blouse. Also, that was her grandmother’s way of dress at home. Blue thought her grandmother was the wisest person in the world and whatever was good for her was always good for Blue. So today she wore knee socks too. This was to ensure that spider or snake would not crawl up her legs. Also, it helped keep ticks from latching on. Blue’s grandmother always battled snakes, she would kill the bad ones and display their carcass on a bush in the yard to ward off other snakes from entering the yard. She killed them with her shovel and appeared so brave. Blue was enamored by her grandmother.

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Every summer, there were always lessons out in the garden at her grandmother’s and every time Blue learned something that she would keep inside her head for the rest of her life. The garden was wondrous with it’s ability to grow life from seeds, and it usually was full of stuff she enjoyed eating. Blue was always the shortest thing in the garden but that did nit stop her from following in her grandmother’s footsteps. She enjoyed everything, even the dirt on her feet to the spider webs in her hair.


For Blue, time spent with her grandmother was crucial to her sanity. Nothing could make her feel so excited or so loved.


To be continued...


    Such A Day, by MwsR

    Such a day, as never I’ve had…

    The one where you come to me

    Telling me, you are sorry

    In my thoughts, I have imagined it were so

    But actuality always prevails.

    Staring at my blank page

    I remind my self of what it should be that matters most

    Not your opinions, or shortcomings

    But my faith and hope in things

    The constant desire to keep those around

    Especially when your reminders abound.

    This the start of better things

    Of smarter times spent

    When strategically shown to me, I know

    That I mattered all along.

    My Own Words

    My Own Saying

    MwsR ❤️

    Let It Find Me(WAIT), by MwsR

    Wound around my happiness is a reminder of things

    Times when I cried, times when I could not sing

    Happiness is a faint thing most days

    I have longed for it all my life

    When will I remember and not be sad

    Will my life ever have a period of glad

    My heart aches so

    I should had known…

    Nothing good can exist without an experience of sadness

    A period of loss and some of gladness

    It is intertwined to co-exist

    Something in my younger days I definitely missed

    I was trying to survive

    Now I must still but also thrive

    If my happiness wasn’t bound by people letting me down

    I would not know how to keep from being drowned

    Maybe I would of sank under all the endless pressures

    Perhaps I would of left and wrote that last letter

    Who knows,

    These are my woes.

    My search for happiness will not go in vain

    I will prevail and continue still

    Then, if happiness comes only for a moment, for a brief second

    Let it find me, let it wrap around my memories and heart

    I want to feel it, have it

    Poem, By MwsR

    Onward, By MwsR

    No going back,
    Not anymore.
    No tracing steps that led to the broken doors
    Hearts can’t rebuild from all that lies behind
    I think I have tortured enough, my mind.
    This is such a small fraction, I need to stay blind.
    Head up, no bowing, no more
    None of us are perfect, not anymore.


    Once we were babies, that is when we could explore.
    Not today, not at our age
    There is always going to be resentment and rage.
    It is like we all are performers and life is the stage.
    Whatever lies ahead
    Let it be kind, with nothing for us to dread.
    Always remember the worst thoughts are in our own heads.
    Trembling like a kid being punished


    That is not what or how it should be, that’s rubbish.
    We should be empowered not told to hush.
    Again, no one is perfect, no one is above
    We all survive with heartaches and love
    We all strive to make it, to the great above.
    I say, “Onward”
    Let’s move forward.

    Old Friend, poem by MwsR

    My sadness comes calling like an old friend

    Brain and heart disheartened

    Pulling me in towards those locked away feelings

    A spin off of my nightmares versus my hopes and dreams

    More than not, burdens of my feelings weight me down

    Abuse was not my doing or liking

    Then why must it be a part of me still?

    Why must it encroach on my space and spread over my face?

    No makeup can cover all this

    I want to put these emotions out to pasture

    Never to bring them back home again.

    Let them die out in a field of clover.

    Sprinkled with the piles of crap from those ”animals”

    My life should mean more

    Than this abuse, I implore.

    Sadness, remembering, and a lot of hurt feelings

    Chased by a strong cup of forgiveness pie.

    Ugh.

    I am to mean more than an abused one

    I want to be more.

    When I look in the mirror, I am more.

    Abused, survivor, and strong

    Now, that’s how I am

    Who I am and was,

    All along.

    Poem by MwsR

    Heart Moon….MSR

    There’s a moon in my heart.
    It only comes out in times of dark.

    You’ll never hear it remark
    For it has no words.

    Shining yet a shadow over feelings and thoughts.

    The purpose of it is quite simple
    It is to give new definition
    Give a different perspective.

    Like all moons it can be seen, not taken
    And felt by only its maker.

    Without it my heart would have stayed black.
    You could say without it I’d never had made it back..

    I’m grateful for my heart moon.
    An evidence of change…