Little girl

So many times there are things that go unspoken, So many people in our world are hurting. So much to say and too little help comes their way.

MwsR

Little girl why are you so sad?

What in the world has happened to make you so weary?

I see the tears  hidden behind your freckles and bangs

I feel alongside with you

It is horrific what we humans do.

We take the innocent and make them accountable

Not for their sins but our own

We pound them down just to watch them under our very feet.

If one of us can control what isn’t ours to control

Then we become more and more bold.

I see you hide when he comes around

And it isn’t because he is a dressed up clown.

I know you feel so let down

I know no one was ever around to help you

It is not your fault

If being innocent and pretty makes you a target

That is a shame

He was the adult, he should have refrained.

I hear your prayers at night

I know you are searching for that one bright light.

You never get much sleep at night, wondering if he will come.

When daybreak sees you into another morning

I feel your excitement soon turn into mourning.

Mourning because you will have to defend, yet again

Those actions of his are his alone

Not your fault that you have to be home.

You are just a kid

A kid who deserves to be loved

Not ignored until you serve a purpose,

For that one you thought would love.

Your cries out in the woods

I hear them and know inside you, you are good.

Remember this thing won’t last your life long

If you can make it through this season or two

I have something better in place for you.

Don’t even think about ending your life

You have so much purpose, so much to give.

Your ending is still unwritten

You have the ultimate choice

And know my dear, I gave you a voice!

                                                                            MwsR ❤

If you know someone who is being abused, mentally, physically, or otherwise, please stand up for them. Take it upon yourself to help them. I was a little girl who did not have anyone. I should have had someone but they failed to come to terms with what was happening to me. It is never okay to hurt another person. If you, yourself, have or is being abused, speak to someone , anyone! Don’t let it continue, don’t stay silent.

http://www.childhelp.org/hotline
1-800-4-A-CHILD (1-800-422-4453)

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Thoughts are getting real up in here…

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Seemed not that long ago. I had a house full of my children and their things. Now my house can get so quite and still. I really miss the days when I was their favorite person, and the person they wanted to be near or grow to be like.  Kids grow up way too fast, it is not just a saying, they really do.  I sometimes feel like they not only outgrew their childhood but me and their dad as well. I guess all parents feel sort of this way in some point along the path of parenthood. I try to see positive things mostly with my kids and not so much their negative aspects. So when my mind travels back into their childhood and all I find that, that time was the sweetest, best time of my life. I can only hope they recall it with as much fondness.

So…

I am not feeling the “empty nest” yet. I am on my way though. I have my two grandkids and their mom, my daughter living with me right now. I have to admit it is a joy to see my grandkids and having my chance to do it all again, as far as teaching them and nurturing them. I think I was always destined to be around children and I am almost sure I was to be a teacher. If circumstances had not steered me away from teaching, I would had been one, I am almost certain. I have always tried to look at things through a kid’s eye. Children are innately innocent and they have such wondrous curiosity for the world around them, They fail to see the bad first in people and they often times imagine that they can be anything they want to be. I try to always remain hopeful as an adult but adulthood can be discouraging. After all we have things that don’t work the same, as far as our bodies. As an adult we have limitations and sometimes our outlook stems from something that has happened to us, be it good or bad, from our own life. That can cause a dimmer outlook, and sometimes can be the sole reason we do not try again or we fail to keep working towards something. Kids outlooks are not jaded, usually, and in that frame they can accomplish great things. For them learning to write is among the first things that leads to better things, if you are a kid. See where I am going with that, kids fear very little and do not have preconceived notions that stop them from doing what they want to do or learning what they want to learn or limits ass to where they can go, in a way.

Well…

I am writing this as I have been thinking long and hard on the many changes in our lives that we go through. I even wrote a poem about the “Stages of our Life”. My hopes are that no matter what happens in our own life that we take the necessary steps to never give up, stop dreaming or living. We adults, same as kids, need hope. As adults we need to flourish, and we need to remember our past life as a learning teachable moment, no matter what. Good or bad it deserves to serve a purpose. It is just that I am getting older, things are certainly changing in my life and I want to still enjoy it. I want to have fun, have peace and cherish what time I do have left on this earth.

If mistakes are keeping you from climbing that mountain you have been on, change things up. Go a different route or maybe stop and play in a creek or stream along the way. It is even okay if you stop and just rest for a short time, ass long as you make it to the place you wish to go. We are not our mistakes, we are not our past regrets, we don’t have to be just here.

Okay so…

Not sure why I felt the need to blog this out in type but if it helps you, then maybe it was for that purpose.

Thanks for reading, please comment , like, share, or follow me.

MwsR ❤

 

 

Landslide, one of my favorite songs

Awesome song in my head this evening!

I love this song , if you haven’t heard it, try to listen to it .

Watch “Fleetwood Mac –  Landslide” on YouTube

https://youtu.be/K_PQ4fRQ5Kc

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Landslide

Song by Fleetwood Mac

I took my love and I took it down

I climbed a mountain and I turned around

And I saw my reflection in the snow covered hills

And the landslide brought me down

Oh, mirror in the sky

What is love ?

Can the child within my heart rise above

Can I sail thought the changing ocean tides

Can I handle the seasons of my life

Well, I’ve been afraid of changing

‘Cause I built my life around you

But time makes you bolder

Even children get older

And I’m getting older, too

Well, I’ve been afraid of changing

‘Cause I built my life around you

But time makes you bolder

Even children get older

And I’m getting older, too

Yes, I’m getting older, too

Take my love and take it down

Climb a mountain and turn around

And if you see my reflection in the snow covered hills

Well the landslide brought me down

And if you see my reflection in the snow covered hills

Well maybe the landslide will bring you down

Songwriters: Stevie Nicks

© Sony/ATV Music Publishing LLC,Kobalt Music Publishing Ltd.

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Meow Meow

I love my Meow Meow very much. He is the sweetest cat. Sometimes, he will press his head against mine to remind me he loves me too. He also loves to kiss me, and I enjoy that. He has brought me such great companionship and is a part of my family.

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Me and My son

My son, who is my youngest child. He is still the same pretty eyed boy as in this picture. Although he is grown now and is 18, soon to be 19, he still has my heart.

Inky

This is Inky, he is my second oldest cat, and he is such a sweet boy. He constantly grabs my hands for me to rub on him. I can’t imagine my life without my Inky in it. He is and will always be precious.

 

 

Stages of our Life/ Poem by MwsR

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Into this world we all begin

Worthless we are without our skin

Not tainted though from other’s opinions

When we are born.

When things start to hurdle through our minds

Countless questions we dare not leave behind

Teenage years are simply search and find times

Times when we discover and explore

What else is there to live for

When we are young.

Accomplished and settled, that’s what you will find

When you have learnt so much from other’s minds.

Everything is within your very reach

Sometimes though, things can appear bleak.

Wanting a legacy and working to make it happen

The future seems so far off, yet within our grasps.

When we are an adult.

Memories cloud are minds of better days

Names of things and people start to fade.

Teaching and showing are our roles now

The past is certainly better than our future.

Things that were important seem trivial here

We just want to be loved and not forgotten.

When we are old.

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There it is again,

The constant nagging of my inner “voices”

Why won’t they leave me alone?                                         thNU5QMVE1

Do I really want them to though, because then I would have no real strength.

If they were to leave me in silence, alone, then what?

Would I be lost completely?

As if anything could defeat me

I will feel safe again.

I will have a calming relief like none other I’ve had before.

Yes, I will stand, and each time I will stand for longer.

Oh wait, what?

You would have me to fall, without a saving grace

You would lock me out from your special places, you’re last minute glances.

That is fine, for now, at least or unless my “inner wolf” starts to howl.

Then all my strength will be called upon.

If that happens I will not stay underfoot.

I will always stand, and when I stand I will eventually stand longer, stronger.

MwsR ❤

Instant/Poem/By MwsR

Instant

In an instant you were gone
Everything that happened went all wrong.
I think about you when I hear certain songs.
You were a chance that I was given
You gave me life, so I could start living.
It was without giving.
I was lost from the time you said goodbye
So many things I wanted to try
Things with you, I cannot lie.
You always felt like a dream
I really didn’t have anything real, it would seem.
Wondering why, why me.
How did you do it?
Go on with your life and not give a shit.
I couldn’t, never did, I felt split.
In an instant my life changed once again.
You died, and we never truly began.1057248_1280x720

 

Recipe Share, why? Just because

Keto Pepperoni Pizza Cauliflower Casserolepepcauli2small-478x700

This keto pepperoni pizza cauliflower casserole is easy and economical to make, and it tastes so good that even picky kids and husbands will be won over! Low carb, gluten free, nut free, egg free.
Author: Mellissa Sevigny                                                 Yield: 4 servings
Ingredients
For the Puree
1 medium head of cauliflower
2 Tbsps. Heavy Cream
1 Tbsp. Butter
8 slices pepperoni
1/4 cup shredded mozzarella cheese
salt and pepper to taste
For the Casserole
12 slices pepperoni
1/2 cup shredded mozzarella cheese

Instructions
For the Puree
Clean and trim the cauliflower, breaking it into medium sized pieces.
Place in a microwave safe bowl with 2 Tbsp of cream and 1 Tbsp of butter.
Microwave, uncovered, on high for 10 minutes.
Stir to coat cauliflower with cream/butter mixture.
Microwave for another six minutes on high (or until tender.)
Remove from the microwave and put into a high speed blender or food processor along with the 8 slices of pepperoni and 1/4 cup mozzarella cheese.
Puree until smooth.
Season with salt and pepper to taste.
You can adjust the cream and butter to your preference for consistency.
For the Casserole
Spread the cauliflower puree into an 8 x 8 oven proof casserole dish.
Cover with 1/2 cup shredded mozzarella cheese, and layer with pepperoni.
Bake at 375 degrees (F) for about 20 minutes.
Alternatively you could microwave this for 5 minutes.
Serve hot.
Nutrition
Serving Size: approximately 3/4 cup
Calories: 207
Fat: 15g
Carbohydrates: 4.75g net
Protein: 10g